Archive for June 2010
I have not always been the nicest person, I have spewed so much negative energy into the world… it is true that you live what you learn and that’s what I did until about 14-16 years ago. I was shocked when I learnt that there was a different way to be. I could not believe the person I had become over the years and wanted so bad to change it. It was so easy to be mean to people, I knew it well, but to be nice, in the face of ANY behaviour was harder, and sometimes I still fail at it… sometimes I get pulled into the gossip without realising it. When I recover from that I make sure I put it right. I have to do what is right for the world, not just myself. This is a drive like no other. The old behaviour is like a drug, it seeps back in when it can, it takes hold of me. It is like the alcoholic that has one more drink and before he knows it he is a drunk again!!
It is hard to be nice all of the time, especially when we live in a world full of hatred. I want to be the change that I want to see. I want to be love and kindness. I don’t always have answers for myself, I sometimes have to pretend to myself that I am my client and what would I say to make it right.
Someone has to take the lead, and I get an awful lot of opposition for telling the truth as it is, even when delivered in love. I want people to know what is going on in the world, what is happening to us as a race. The human race is on a time limit and we have to make changes now. I want to be part of that. I want to spread nothing but love.
I do though, forgive myself for anything negative that occurs from time to time. It is never all the time, just some of it.
I know that love is the answer to everything, to let go of all hate and anger and allow love to flow.
For today and the rest of the week I shall be working on this. I want to be the peaceful warrior.. with nothing but love to give. This is my promise to myself.
What do you do when you know the whole world is a farce…?
I keep getting deleted for having my views about conspiracy theories! I post stuff on MY facebook page and people come to moan at me on MY space!!! My neighbour deleted me today. She has been acting funny with me for a while and word on the tiles is that there has been friction between us for some time, although I have been unaware of this. There certainly was no friction from me, that I know of!
She said she found herself looking at my status and reading what I posted, she got scared and said if she continued to take notice of it she may as well be dead!! I understand this feeling, I feel crazy alone sometimes, like no-one gets me over this stuff. She also said that she felt she could not approach me about it, yet I proved her wrong because she was stood there being open and honest, whilst I remained calm and loving to the soul of her.
She said she had been to the doctor and spent the week crying!! PLEASE…. this is not my fault, she had been listening to my conversations with people in my garden over the fence where we cannot see her. Being quiet not to let us hear the door… I live here, I know how muffled the neighbours sound when they talk, she must have been very still and straining to hear!! So again I have to deal with people being asses. That’s 3 people in less than a week that has decided to do this because of what I post!!
I am a free spirit, I can do as I wish and these people chase me around, reading what I wrote… I have the right to post what I like, say what I like… when I like!!
I am a kind and loving human being, spreading the truth as I know it…. we all have our own truth, no need to attack mine!
I believe the whole world is a farce and the more I learn the scarier it gets, but I know in my gut it is the truth. I have never EVER been wrong on my gut feeling, not ever!
I want to move, but am trapped in a system that seems to own my ass! I don’t know what I am meant to do or how I am meant to do it. I know the answer is out there though! I know it!
I love the world in which we live and I KNOW we can somehow find a way to live in peace all over the world, I just don’t have the answers!! Someone must!
- In: Uncategorized
- Leave a Comment
You know, all this stuff I believe in is making me look mad and making people around me act mad.
I get ‘picked on’ on my face book page by people who call me a friend. I got deleted today by someone I know because I believe Michael Jackson in innocent. It is my face book page, I do my research and believe what my finely tuned gut feeling tells me. If people don’t like that don’t read!!!!
It could be a horrible experience of people laughing and picking on me for my beliefs if I cared. Gladly I know and believe that what other people think of me is none of my business… I know in my gut I am right…
The evidence is mounting by the day….
Conspiracy FACT!
Posted on: June 13, 2010
Ok, so I have had to take a really long hard look at my life lately. I am a survivor of child abuse. I have had my therapy and I feel I have healed that pain. I had Time Line Therapy at my NLP course and this helped me to eliminate any left over feelings I had from my previous therapy. I love the person I have become, although I still have much work to do. I would not change a thing about what I have been through or that would take part of me away…and I don’t want that. Ok so I know that sounds clique but that is so true.
I have learnt so much lately, in part because I was meant to, the time was right, but also because I have been on my awakening path for 14 years now. It all started with a book called One Day My Soul Just Opened Up by Iyanla Vanzant, it was the start of my journey. Well saying that, my journey had started as a young child. When I knew in my soul that the bible felt like a lie, that there was more to life than what I was being told… I knew there was more. I researched churches and religions and beliefs, trying to find an answer, trying to find a way for what the bible said to sit right in my gut!! But I could not find it. My heart was pure and full of love yet I could not find the way to make the outside world fit. Well over time I met a very wise old man called Fred, he suggested to me one day that I find my own things to believe in, what felt right in my gut was right for me. It was like someone was giving me permission to be me, not that I needed permission, but I was so damaged back then because I have been controlled by so many people, in so many ways and for so long, that I did not know that there was a ‘real me’. So I started to research at a much deeper level.
I had many experiences in my life, that I do not wish to go into right now, a later blog maybe, but I started to find things that fitted in my gut, in my soul, that connected with my higher self. It also gave me answers to the strange and amazing things that had happened to me.
I had some strange and weird opinions from others when I started to talk about where my research had taken me. I learnt about the government and the criminal justice system, even going to college studying law and a degree in criminal justice with psychology. Ok so I didn’t get my degree because I QUIT!! That’s right I quit and I quit because I learnt that there really was no criminal justice and the law was a joke.
I have suffered first hands at the system, that did me a huge injustice that will be with me for the rest of my life. The system is a joke. You only have to do your own research to know that they abuse us with money, or lack of it, poisons in our air through chem-trails . They immunise our children with mercury. They dumb us down with poison in our food and makeup, perfume and toothpaste. Even TV and the music you listen to. The list is endless.
We need to wake up to what our governments and the ‘real’ world leaders are up to. They don’t want us to be awake, or we would know about our own infinite power. We are infinite love and infinite consciousness. We are and always will be everything. We have the power, but we do not know we have it. We believe everything we are told to believe!!
I have done my research and I am now going to be using my blog to share what I have learnt. I will still keep up with MMS, but this has to be shared.
I think the greatest sin in the universe is to have knowledge about and for the world and to not share it. I believe we are all entitled to write, say and share whatever we want, to allow others to listen, do their own research and making up our own minds. Please respect me and my blog and leave all your negative stuff for other things that you do. This stuff sits true in my gut and I have researched for years. I always research both sides of the coin, although ultimately I believe what my gut feeling tells me.
I am going to start here…. the link to the book that started it for me and share some more links with you. I shall write more another day.
An introduction to David Icke… (lots more to come about him, Genius.)
This guy is a genius… I can’t wait to see him in September. If people DID their research they would see for themselves. If they took the time to read just one of his books they would see that what he says HAPPENS!! What he predicts comes true… This man KNOWS what he is talking about and it is only you who misses out if you don’t do your research because you stay part of the problems that you yourself moan about…
DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH BUT DO NOT SLATE MINE!!!
.
.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2sTy4rVl7SE&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-tHM8GLGPc&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=11k5_e9JfFw&NR=1
.
.
Chemtrails…. This is serious and people must learn about it. Don’t take our word for it… Just look up at your skies at least 10 times during the day and you will see….
.
.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=te_FOsKL_5Q
.
.
Remember they put the truth in front of you…. more chemtrails….
.
.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJsppoJ4DSo&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Psdg3OAw_a8&feature=fvw
.
.
Well that’s it for this time, Thanks.
Awsome list. Made me think and a great thing to share.
via Holocaust Labs
Well what can I say??
I am so well, I don’t have a cough any more, and if I do cough it is a simple normal cough. I have very very little phlegm and rarely have to blow my nose. I no longer have a cough keeping me awake at night. I just feel 100% better than I did 10 weeks ago when all this started. I am so grateful to Jim Humble (who I e-mailed and he mailed me back…. Bless Him.. x) for finding this. All I can say to anyone who wants to try it is…’What have you got to lose?’
I will also tell you that Mark’s arthritis is amazing aswell and his hands are healing by the day, solid lumps now have movement and you can feel it breaking down…
This is amazing, so simple yet so amazing. I will always encourage people to try it… it is life changing.
Life's Trials and MMS ... Blog 