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I am a great believer in ‘Positive Thinking’… I also believe that there is great power in positive thinking. As the LOA shows us, we can bring great things into our lives by keeping your mind focused on a positive way of life.

I have had to tell 2 friends today that I cannot deal with their negative attitudes anymore.

One person has something negative to say to every positive statement I make on various internet sites that I belong to. Today I told this person to PLEASE not say anything unless it is positive.

I have another friend who e-mails me and asks the same questions and has done for 2 years, so of course my answers are the same to the same questions. I cannot help what the answers are, and because she chooses to not change her life she gets frustrated at me because the answers are the same. Well that is not my fault and I cannot help what the truth is, or that the truth can set you free should you choose to follow simple life rules. I told her that I have nothing left to give, that life is what we make it and I cannot deal with her blaming her life on me, I am responsible for my life and mine only!!

I have redefined my boundaries and I have a choice as to whether I choose to hear or see these negative comments…. I do not want it in my life!! This is what I choose!

To me being positive is choosing to be a spiritual warrior regardless of what we feel. I can take any negative thing I feel and turn it around. I learnt this from reading/watching many things, including the Secret by Rhonda Byrnes and What the ‘Bleep’ do we know and also from Eckhart Tolle the Power of Now. I am reading ‘Think and Grow Rich’ by Napoleon Hill at the moment, that also puts a lot of emphasis on thoughts.

What we think is important to our lives and what we can achieve. When your worrying and stressing you end up with a real negative feeling in your belly, this is a true indication that your thoughts are wrong. You can at any given moment, change what you feel, by changing what you think.

Try it now…. If you feel sad or mad try this…

Close your eyes (after you finished reading this of course) and think of a time when you were REALLY REALLY HAPPY.. be in your body and see what you saw, hear what you heard and feel what you felt. Really feel it. Make the picture big and bright and take a look around … How do you feel now?? Really Happy right??

If you feel Happy, try the opposite… but make sure you think of something happy to raise your happy vibration when you have finished. You can, if you want, choose what you feel and when you feel it. We are talking about every day life here, not when your grieving or being hurt or abused, that’s a whole new set of life tools… I am talking daily life, where we stress about money, illness, kids, washing up, shopping, etc!!

The Universe is made of energy, and so are we, I believe what we think about we bring about. I believe if we are positive happy thinking people then we attract positive happy people and situations to us…… if we are down and depressed and thinking ‘Why me? Bad stuff always happens to me’ then that is what will continue to happen.

I have had many people tell me this does not work, because they have tried it for 3 days … it takes 30 days to change things around, 30 days for your ‘subconscious’ mind to GET IT!! Then your there and life is so much easier!!

How do I know?? Well I can tell you that for more than 25 years I wanted to die, I hated life and I didn’t want  to be here. I had so much pain in my life and the only reason I continued to live was because I had kids. I had tried many times to take my life before I had kids, but it never seemed to go right!!

I am, now of course, really really happy that I never hurt myself to the point of no return, I am so happy that I have the life I want. No I do not have a huge house and masses of money, I have ME, I have found me and I have found what life means to me and I have healed my pain and I am truly, truly happy in my life, all because I changed my thoughts!!

One day, I will have the house, the money etc… because I choose to, life is a series of choices…



When I was 16 years old, a school friend was murdered by someone we knew. This shocked me to the core and changed who I was forever.  As I grew up I became obsessed with serial killers and stories of emotional pain. Then in my mid 20’s I started to look into the victims side, what it was like to be them. I started to read about the families of victims, how sometimes their last words were those of arguments.  This made me feel so sad. Imagine the person you love being murdered, and the last thing you said was words of anger, hate, frustration!! That scared me and I knew I wanted to never ever leave things in that way! Obviously with growing up I realised that death was not just about murder, but anything, at any time! There are 100’s of ways to die and death comes when it wants to!!

So I learnt from this and decided that I wanted to learn the art of conversation, and arguments. My relationship at this time was with a man who was having none of my new found wisdom. I used to beg him not to leave on an argument. He just did it all the more to hurt me.  Now the man I am with is amazing. almost 7 years together. Now we don’t argue, but back in the day when we did he would not walk out, he would sit in the garden instead. He respected my fear.

Out of this fear was born a kindness that I cannot explain. I don’t think about death in the way I used to, it is second nature to me to be kind to everyone now.  I will smile at the lady at the super market and say a nice heartfelt thankyou. I maybe the only person to do that day and what if she was to die on the way home??

I make sure that I give my kids love and kisses on the way out the door without fail… this comes from Dunblane!! I remember that day so well, My eldest son was due to start school a few months later. I wonder how many kids didn’t have a cuddle from their mum or dad that morning before they were killed!!  I wonder how many mums and dads lived with such HUGE regrets because they did not have the time to be kind to their kids.

I do not think about death, I think about life, and I live it, but I live it with care. I make sure that those I love feel loved by me, it is important for people to know that they matter. I extend my kindness to as many people as I can, random strangers, shop workers, school teachers, other parents…. I have to, it’s in me and life is about love and sharing, that is a gift we all have, to love and share with others.

Human beings are so scared of what the world has become, they stay afraid, unloved and alone. Life has more meaning than this and it is my job, from my heart to go and put as much kindness and love into the world as I can..

oh and this leads me to these guys…

These are the LOVE POLICE… that is the cheesiest name I have ever heard, but these guys are awesome, awesome, awesome… I love them, they are great… look for yourself!!

Freedom! How much freedom do you think we have??

I guess it depends on how you see freedom! For me freedom is inner peace, to be free of the hustle and bustle of the world. To know that people can do what they want but they cannot touch my soul, freedom is in my soul. Freedom is free of pain and suffering, anger and war!!

I thought I would share this movie link with you, it’s called the ‘Freedom Movie’ and it is pretty good stuff, ways to free your life up as well as a look into what is happening in our world. The world needs to be FREE of pain and anger and only know love and joy!

This is part one of four. But worth watching. It allows us to know what we can do about the world. It talks about Chem Trails, government, conspiracy, and people who have done amazing things and yet been killed!!

Ok so that sounds heavy… but it is worth it!!

I have many things I want to post about love and peace, but I feel this is important and should come first!!

So … I read today.. ‘What would I go back and say to a 17 year me’? Having all the knowledge I have now and all the life lessons.. what would I say to me back then if I could travel back to me now?

I would tell my 17-year-old self that its ok to make any mistakes that I was going to make, as each mistake would turn out to be a blessing in the form of a lesson… that with each torrent of emotional pain would come the most amazing choices and learnings and inner strength. I would tell the 17-year-old me to embrace life and not be afraid of life or self or others. I would encourage that me to never care what others thought of me… I would tell me, most of all, that I love me, always have done, I just didn’t see it before.
I would tell me that patience will come, peace will come, self-respect and love will come, as will enjoyment, enlightenment, beauty and emotional intelligence.
I would tell me that life is short, so get dancing and never let anyone try to stop you being yourself, don’t give your emotions over to the power of someone else. I would tell me that I am amazing and unique and that life is a choice and we should choose to live it!!…

I would tell me to stick to the same path, I would not change a thing, I would remind me to forgive sooner, and let go easier….
I would encourage me to stay the same, not to change for anyone but me… so life could become as magical as it has!!

People think it is a little silly talking to themselves. Yet we talk to ourselves all the time.

We say things like…

“What shall I do today?”

“What can I wear out tonight?”

“I wonder what he is doing now?”

“Oh did I leave the cooker on?”

“I look fat in this”

“Oh I hate that girl”

So as you can see, hundreds and hundreds of times a day we speak to ourselves. Sometimes we have a two-way conversation going on with ourselves. Depending on your model of the world and how you see things will depend on what you say to yourself.

One of the first things I teach my clients is to talk to themselves in a nice way. To become their own best friend.

I suggest to them to take their own advice but take away the emotions that they have connected to the outcome or solution. What would they say to their dearest friend in the same situation as any you may face?

I used to hate myself, everything about me, I had the most awful time and allowed people to treat me in the most awful ways. But then one day all that changed and I knew I had to make a lot of changes in my life!!

From the day I started to act as my friend I began to heal. I stopped listening to what others thought of me and started to seek my own approval. I used to hate who I was and lets face it, when it comes to looking at ourselves for personal growth, very rarely do we like who we are. This is because until the moment you decide you want to take a journey to yourself and learn about the person you really are, you are really a product of everyone elses making. Your full of negative stuff passed on to you from your parents and friends and anyone else who was a part of your life. You carry all these things inside of you. In your subconscious mind, your conscious mind, your cells and every fibre of your being. You carry this  negativity around with you all your life, maybe acting in ways you don’t want to. Having behaviours that you just don’t understand. Thoughts that you hate but cannot get rid of.

Your life can seem like it is not yours, it can seem like every one thinks they know best for you, you never know who to listen to and you always get confused. Well then it is no wonder that when you really look at yourself you are someone you do not like, you are now a part of all the negative things in other  peoples lives rolled into one.. and that’s where you start from when you want to journey to self and find out who you are!!!

This is enough to make people back off from improving their lives. People have little or no self-esteem and no confidence so it is hard at that point to know where to go.

My clients go through an awful lot sometimes, telling themselves every day for 30 days how wonderful they are and changing their self talk. 30 days is what it takes to convince the subconscious mind that the new self talk is fact…

This is amazing, there are many good things to say to oneself everydayand many ways to be kind to yourself. You already do the self talk, so just make it nice.

Becoming your own best friend will transform your life forever!! You cannot ever go back to old ways of thinking.

Ok so I have been working on healing light, and breathing deep and through the nose.. Tummy out when breathing in and wow that makes a HUGE difference to my chest and how tight it feels… I am talking my inhailer less!!  I guess that says a  lot. I know this is possible and I WILL DO IT!! I know we all have power in us and I want to find it, learn about it, take it apart and know what I know!!

I believe our minds have great power, I believe we have power that we cannot even comprehend!!

Our bodies know exactly what to do, we don’t need pharmaceutical medicines… do we??

Well I have a weak chest right now and am taking steroids… YUCK!!  I am seeking and reading to find ways to heal myself. Lets say this, even the nurse does not understand why these steroids have not worked!!  I know they have not worked, I am getting a weaker chest by the day. Is this because I need to learn something about self-healing?

I am reading a book called The Heart of Healing Body, Mind and Spirit by Caroline Latham, it has some really useful ideas.. I know that I can do this, it is the HOW that I want to know about. I know that thoughts have amazing power, so for now I am imagining my cells in my body healing everything… we will see and I will keep you updated as to what I learn and how it works out!!


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